Goals

Here it is December 18th. Where has this year gone? It seems the older you get the faster time flies by. Tomorrow I'll be 56 years old. I look around and see people in thier 70's, 80's and even 90's and wonder what my life will be like if I'm lucky enough to live that long. I'm short, fat and seriously out of shape and now have Type II diabetes. The doctor just started me on new meds and I'm suppose to prick my finger every other morning and keep a log of my results. Let me tell you they are down right scarey and I've only had to log them in 3 days so far. I need to join a gym, like Curves but so far I've been too lazy or too cheap to join one. My goals I've set so far are: 1) Buy a house in 2007 2) Get another dog/puppy in 2007 3) start losing weight and get sugar levels under control 3) Take a vacation 4) See my best friend again 5) follow a stricter budget 6) Find someone to spend time with and not be so much of a recluse... and the list goes on. To buy a home in California, I'll need to find a part time job or figure out a way to have 2 full time jobs. The prices here are outrageous. People wonder why I want to move to the mid-west. The pay for what I do is the same in the mid-west as what I get paid here in California. The housing there is far cheaper than California. I live in one of the cheapest areas of California and I can't afford to buy a home here on my own. At least a home in a decent and safe area. In the mid-west, I could buy a home with acreage for $150,000 or less. Here, I can't even buy a condo or for the most part I couldn't even buy a mobile home in a park. Watch out 2007, the world is going to see a new, more outspoken me.

Inner Beauty

So many people judge others by their looks. They fail to really see the beauty of the person, the true beauty. A person's out looks are so deceiving and shallow. I've found most people who are beautiful on the outside are ugly on the inside. A friend of mine is always saying he's ugly, that Robert Redford has no worries about competing with him for looks. Robert Redford and others would have a lot to worry about if they were to compete on who they really are and what really is inside their hearts and souls. I can't call this friend beautiful because that term seems to almost always be reserved for females. He is handsome/beautiful. He has the most beautiful heart and it shows through his eyes and his actions. He has money, lives in a nice home, has no debts but to meet him you'd never know it. He is just a regular person that has very high family and friend values. We all have several acquaintances but only in true reality have a small amount of true friends. Other than family, I've been blessed with at least one and wish everyone would have the opportunity to meet him and become more like him.

My Best Friend

I've come to realize that I have an incredible best friend. We don't live in the same state, never talk on the phone but I know I can count on him no matter what. All I have to do is put a message in my MSN Messenger Status or just send him an email and he'll stop in his busy day to email me or come on MSN and stay up until 1 and 2 am his time to talk to me and make sure I'm ok. I've done the same for him.. after all that's what friends do for each other. We've known each other since the latter part of 1999, have met in person and have been lovers in the past. Our friendship is based on pure friendship. We don't care what each other looks like, we don't judge each other by our jobs or income. We just plain don't judge each other. Since starting my new job in May, my work hours have changed and I can no longer have MSN Messenger on a work computer. I'll have a rough day and come home to find a long email saying he'd been thinking about me.. how he misses our chats and how he misses his best friend. He's tried to come to California for a visit over the last 3 yrs but life always gets in the way, with deaths or illness. The feelings we have are true friendship feelings.. love for a friend.. not romantic love.... how do I explain it..... :-)